Money

Money, money, money. Need some. Fast. There must be a reason for my being in this situation. To trust? To take action? To learn? I wonder if there is a way I can make it fun? I wake up drained so it's hard to imagine doing more. Perhaps it's working more effectively rather than harder? Ugh, I'm feeling lost and a bit hopeless. I am putting out for a particular amount of bonus income to come to me. Part of me doesn't believe it will happen. But I will keep on at it. I have been imagining all the fun I'll have with that amount. And it feels good.

Lifelong Adventure

I did go away for three weeks, came home and worked for a week, away for another week. All of my trips have been challenging due to my reluctance to be away from home and on the move. And also, there have been restrictions in the way I have travelled and with my travel compantions. I have seen and done some wonderful things. I have also tolerated a lot of things. I would like to be more embracing of experiences, rather than putting up with them... especially special trips overseas. I suppose that's OK too. It's who I am.

And now that I'm home again... well, an even bigger adventure is on the cards... one that I did not plan or foresee until a couple of months ago. I panicked, of course! And now I'm questioning if it's right for me. And also seeing if it is possible to actually take place.

It seems that if you have a goal to experiment and try new things at the back of your mind... well, it happens. I did want to have more control over the things I was trying... actually choosing experiences that I would like and wanted to do... still working on this. They still seem to be coming from outside of myself and more random and uncontrolled than is preferable.

It's been more than a year... perhaps I should change the blog title to Lifelong Adventure?

Holiday!!!

Well, I'm off first thing in the morning. My luggage has already begun its journey... I catch up with it in the afternoon. I'm equally dreading and looking forward to the trip... seems a strange mix... but, y'know, I'm pretty resistant to the unknown...

So, I'll be seeing yas in a few weeks.

Peregrine

This change/grow/have adventures idea of mine is just not going to be easy for me. Already I've had a big argument because I didn't want to make a phone call. I'm battling against an extremely stubborn astrological sign, a family trait and a particularly strong personal characteristic. Just because I've decided I want adventure and change doesn't mean I won't resist it. I need to remind myself to try the alternative, to try something different to what I usually do. I made that phone call... to prove that I was right... and in anger. That's not how I want to approach these adventures. I want them to be fun and as wondrous as can be. To be filled with possibility and potential. Perhaps I'll be more open when I'm not pre-menstrual...

I have taken some extra work temporarily which means a bit more income. I've decided what days I'm available to take on a regular part-time/casual job. And I'm making more decisions about where I want and need to live and how much money I will need.

I vacuumed my car this morning (I would have washed it but the water restrictions prohibit hosing cars and I'm too lazy to use a bucket today). Also, I finally christened it. I've decided to name my car Peregrine because the name is about travelling and change (it's in a blog – it must be true!) Welcome, Perry, to my life :)