Countdown

The countdown to the year has begun. Around the anniversary of when I started this blog I will be leaving for a three week holiday overseas which presented itself to me by good fortune. So much has changed, so little has changed. I have adventured. I have explored. Whether I have learned mountains of wisdoms and life lessons remains yet to be seen.

A new train of thought

Wow, it's almost July. I've lived on my own for 6 mths now. My latest adventure is that I fell pregnant and miscarried. It has put things into perspective. I have reassessed what is important in my life.

A while back I became frustrated with my adventures. It didn't feel satisfying to do things simply to try them out. I often felt panicked and resistant. I've since done some reading. Apparently I can control and choose my adventures according to what feels good. See, I've been lacking the emotional balance in my travels. And I must admit that I've not been thinking so much of adventures lately.

I have been making plans though. It's just that my thinking and terminology is slightly different. I'm going overseas in a few months. This came about unexpectedly. I'm saving what I can and believing that I'll get the money that I require. My career and employment is turning around. I've been unsatisfied with some of the aspects of my job and am veering off on a slightly different tangent. It's scary. But necessary. I'm making life plans with my partner. It looks like I'll be moving in the next 6 mths. I may even move to a different part of the world.

So my new tactic is to do what makes me feel good. It feels better to have this thought and that is a start. We shall see how it all unfolds.

Give in

The trip was stressful and fun and exhausting and exciting. I had expectations. Camping was different to those expectations. I think I need to go away more often. And just allow the trip to unfold, to give in. Hmmm, it's a lot to ask. Relax. Let go. Give in. Bye.

Holiday!!!

Well, I'm off first thing in the morning. My luggage has already begun its journey... I catch up with it in the afternoon. I'm equally dreading and looking forward to the trip... seems a strange mix... but, y'know, I'm pretty resistant to the unknown...

So, I'll be seeing yas in a few weeks.

Summer is on the wane

Well... have I been slack with updating!!

What have I been up to? Have I been off adventuring???

Well, in some ways I have been. I've been nesting, socialising, dancing, working, soul searching, singing, reading, planning.

I haven't had much time to write online and keep up with all my side projects.

Work is slow, a seasonal thing, but I've managed to put aside some money... which I will spend when I go away for 2 weeks later this month. Part of me is looking forward to the trip, part of me is scared of not working, of spending money, that I won't enjoy myself, that I'm wasting my time, that I'll get fat and unfit, that I'll lose time...

For health reasons, I'm about to change my diet... eliminating a whole lot of rubbish (and foods that could be making me ill) and replacing those foods with wholesome, nutritious foods. I'm making the transition today... clearing/hiding foods I'm not to eat and buying foods to eat in abundance. This morning I had my last caffeine and sugar for... hmmm, not sure how long I'll do it for, will update monthly and see how I'm going...

Today is a paperwork day. I have numbers and reports to finalise for January. Better see to it... one can't adventure all the time...

P.S. I've updated my wishlist.

Newness

I signed a lease right before Christmas, moved the last of my stuff on Christmas Eve and stayed my first night in my new home on Boxing Day. Now I'm settling in, sorting out what furniture to keep, change, upgrade or acquire, unpacking a few last boxes, re-arranging things and de-cluttering as much as I can.

It's a small home but I have room for guests, room for myself to breathe and think and be me.

I love having my own home!

Home is where the heart is

My latest "adventure" is being homeless. Not homeless homeless... I have somewhere to stay... just that I couldn't find a new home before leaving the old one. I have a few maybes, I've applied for a rental, and who knows...

I have had bursts of activity and done lots of useful things. I feel a lot less stuck than previously. I do still have some stagnant areas but there is a lot more movement, much of which is productive in some way or another.

There have been some sad times, some very emotional times. There have been some OK times and good times.

It's interesting how simply giving myself permission to try some new things has indeed produced that result.